Not Sure

I am having a hard time knowing what to write about here. The fact of the matter is, my real life and my online life intersected in an uncomfortable way recently and I don't know what I care to share anymore. This isn't actually a new experience, it has happened before. I have been tossing around the idea of quitting my online blog life for a while. It's a little uncomfortable when you are not anonymous. And that's my own fault. I never went out of my way to be anonymous. And when you are an anxious sort, like I admittedly am, it can get to you.

Though I don't blog all the time anymore, I think I'd miss it. I DO miss it. Already. I like having a record of things for myself, and I like having places to tell the stories of our lives to far-flung friends and relatives. And strangers, too, even. I like having a place to write and work things out, even though the writing has long since become much less revelatory and much more of the "so this happened' variety.

I like meeting new people because of my blog. Not that that happens much anymore. Funny, how, if you don't write much, you don't get many readers.

If you don't build it, so it turns out, they don't come.

So here I sit. Again, I am tossing it around in my noodle. Not, I assure you, to fish for comments of the "please don't quit" variety, or ANY variety for that matter, but because I am trying to figure out what, if any, place there is for blogging in my life right now. To go private or not, to quit and start over somewhere else and more anonymously, to just quit.

I really just don't know.

I used to feel much more fearless once upon a time. I don't so much feel that way anymore.

Comments

[starrlife]

Oh my what happened? You can email me if you'd prefer. I know I am so vigilant about anon- you can always build a new blog (I did that) and invite all of your trusted readers over by email? Hope that it wasn't scary....
Sure would miss you (altho I'm not on too much anymore either, I can't give it up)

[Erin]

I def understand the wanting to be anon. I am totally anon on my blog, so far as people I know in real life. I want to keep it that way.

[Crittle]

I totally get it and am not sure what to do about it either.

[krlr]

Just thinking about you & hope everything's OK.

[Erika P]

I hope you continue your blog but I do understand having privacy concerns....I am an "anon" reader so I do hope you keep it open. Cause then I would feel all weird cause I don't know ya i.e. I wouldn't be invited to the new blog.

[alisa leahy]

As an anon who shares a birthday with Georgia and has followed your blog for a long time-I would miss you and your wonderful children. But only you can do what is right for you!!!
Alisa in CT

[Aubrey]

I would miss you too!